Truth is, I’ve had a crush on this girl since I was 13 years old. She’s always been that pretty blonde that you could just hang out with. I remember the weird feeling I would get when I’d hear a knock on the door after school, and it would be her. She lived right down the street, so she, my sister and I were sort of always together. Freshman year came around, and I tried so fucking hard to get in this chicks pants. It was what you would consider ‘puberty’ ladies and gents. And I just wanted to touch her as if I’ve never had a fucking boner in my entire life. But she just wouldn’t do it. Nope. I wasn’t her type. An attractive, badass, song writing, music playing guy isn’t her type? Knowing this, I had a challenge. And it took me until June 8th to finally succeed. No. I didn’t get into her pants, not quite yet anyway ;) She and I were really close, so we always knew about each other’s personal issues. I would go to her if I needed something, she would go to me.
She was going through a really rough time with her boyfriend. Well, ex. She was just informed about a cheater, and she just needed someone to talk. She just needed Justin. ;) Lmfao. Anyway. I went to her house, and she was just crying her eyes out, and I don’t even deal with that shit when it comes to my baby sister. So I just did what I do with my sister, and I pulled her into my arms. We sat on her bed and I allowed her to cry until all of her tears were soaked into my hoodie. I just wanted her to feel okay, because I felt so safe just holding her. After everything sort of settled, I brought her out for ice-cream at Sonic, her favorite ;), just to get her mind off of things. It was almost like I was a crack addict going through with drawls because I didn’t see her smile for what felt like ages. I tried everything to make her feel better, and I finally did.
After that night, I was constantly giving her my full attention. I wanted her with me, at all times. I talked the guys into letting her watch us record lyrics and everything. I couldn’t stop thinking about her, and I couldn’t explain why. It made no sense. But I’ve always felt this way for her, so I guess it was understandable. I just felt like a little boy again when I was around her. So care free, and like I had no responsibility at all. So I wrote about it, and on June 8th, I knew it was time to make her mine. In fact, I did an old school cheesy thing like the gentleman I am ;) Are you ready for this? Because I’m almost positive you will all read this and laugh. I talked to her mom ahead of time, so I wasn’t just randomly creeping in her house, FYI. Lmfao. Anyway. I placed a note next to her bed, where I knew she would see it. It read, “I have a surprise for you, but you have to find me first. -Justin” And on the note was a piece of a plain puzzle. I left notes everywhere from her house to mine with little puzzle pieces taped to those as well. The puzzle pieces had letters on them, so when she’d put the pieces together, there would be a message.
The ‘final’ puzzle piece was placed in my backyard on our little table thing on our patio, porch deal. The note on the table told her to take a seat, and put the pieces together. But she was missing one. I realized she was getting up to come inside, knowing she was missing a piece. The puzzle that she had filled out now, said “Will you be” I quickly ran to my piano and started playing. When she walked into the room, I was singing a song I recently wrote about her. It was obviously about her from the lyrics, so she knew. She came down and sat next to me, and when she looked onto the piano, she picked up the last piece that said “mine?” I finished the song, and that was the beginning. I can finally call this girl mine, and I love her so much. It’s scary, actually. I haven’t ever loved a girl before. But this is real. And I know, you’re probably reading this and doing the math, June 8th to now? That’s not even 2 months yet, but hear me out. I’ve known her since I was 5 years old. I plan on holding onto this girl until the day I die.
I guess I finally found a use for this ‘tumblr’ thing that I was forced into making. But I really needed to get that out. I really feel for this girl. And that’s never happened before. But her smile, just gives me goosebumps and an unforgettable feeling that I can’t even describe. I’ve never smiled so much in my entire life. She’s finally mine. :) Thank you for reading this whole rant about me being a little girl and talking about my feelings. I feel so unmanly. Anway. Meet Alex, my beautiful girlfriend. :) I love saying that.
